Dec 28, 2008

That's All Folks!

Truth be told, I'm sick of the sad sap I've become. I started a new blog recently, and after a couple of posts I realize I much prefer the new content. Unfortunately, they turned out to be much TOO personal to share with everyone, so it'll stay as an anonymous blog.

And yup, this is the end of this blog. Thank you to all who has been following so far. I'm getting out of here before I'm trapped in this gloom & doom!

Oh and Merry Christmas & Happy New Year everyone!

It's a brand new start for me!

Nov 28, 2008

Tada

I pass the year, but I got tagged for surgery and required to do a directed elective for medicine.

Yes I'm that bad. Watch out world, there's a dubious doctor in the making.

The annoying thing is, I have absolutely no idea how to improve on all these assessments. I just feel so... left out of the loop.

Have to survive next year. How?

Nov 12, 2008

PASSED

I passed. Barely. But passed.

Now I'm torn between just stay as far as I can from Medicine for the holidays, or start preparing for my final year in med school. My results have been going steadily downhill right back since sem 4 in IMU, and now that I've reached the point where I've just barely missed the failing line, I can't afford to be complacent anymore.

I'll definitely take a break once I get registered as a doctor. Maybe get myself involve in some research. Or perhaps some light teaching back in IMU. Facilitating PBLs sounds like a fun way to earn some money.

Nov 10, 2008

Fear

But I fear
I have nothing to give
And I have so much to lose
Here in this lonely place
Tangled up in our embrace
There's nothing I'd like
Better than to fall

- lyrics from 'Fear', by Sarah McLachlan

Oct 26, 2008

Achievement

I helped a friend getting his first job at a prestigious company. Giving him tips on what to expect in the job interview, how to handle some of the commonly-asked questions, and most significantly, proof-reading & correct all the errors in his all his mail to the company when he was applying for the job. I'm really happy for him for getting that job.

That small contribution I've made gives me a sense of achievement. Something I have never felt ever since I've entered med school 5 years ago.

...Sometimes I pity myself.

Oct 23, 2008

rambling

oh why why do i study medicine no time not enough time to finish study everything omg i need sleep it's 4.38am and exam's on 2.15pm but shit i still haven't cover so much omg i dowanna fail cost too much bloody 120000 ringgit cannot be gone to waste not to mention my loan which i have to return no no no please no i need to pass this badly omg i should sleep no i should study i'm going mad

Oct 22, 2008

I'm lost...

...in a sea of drugs!!!



ARGH!!!

Oct 14, 2008

Motivation from Mozart

Thank God for Mozart. When I just can't go on with my studies anymore, his music is the only thing that still motivates me to soldier onwards.

Especially his final completed masterpiece, the 4th movement of his Symphony No.41 in C Major (K. 551). Woody Allen once said that the piece proves the existence of God. While I think that's an overstatement, the piece is nothing short of a glorious testament to the genius that is Mozart.

It'll soon be over

While it may seemed that I have stop blogging bcuz I'm losing interest in it, truth is I just don't want to whine incessantly in my blog, which is what that will happen if I am to write down my thoughts and feelings for the past few months. Yes things have been rough, but thank God it'll all end soon.

Finals will start at 18/10 with Paper A, Paper B at 23/10, and OSCE on the 28/10. And hopefully this is the only time I have to take these tests, as I certainly don't have the will to repeat 5th year again. I have enough of struggling through med school. About time to learn by being part of the workforce.

I need a break. A very long break.