no no i can't allow this to repeat again in another run i have to move on grow up already thom time and tide waits for no one what done is done take action now get it done final 2 weeks then u'll have a break things can still be salvaged if you act now so act now now now WAKE UP

Fail

I didn't make it.

Surprisingly it wasn't as devastating as I thought it'll be.

I'm given a second chance, and I'm confident I'll do alright then.

Time to wake up to reality Thom.

The clock is ticking.

Earn it.

High Anxiety

I couldn't bear to hear the truth. My ego will be in shatters if I didn't make it. But neither can I persist in this state of limbo before the truth finally boils out.

I've got to make the call. But I dare not.

God help me.

Monkey Business

Anwar increasingly reminded me of Senator Palpatine/Darth Sidious, and UMNO, the corrupted Old Republic.


The whole sodomy/BN mole episode just sounds fishy to me. How the hell did the PKR get the photographic 'evidence' connecting the 'mole' to big BN figures so fast? It almost seems to be meticulously planned and executed. Not unlike the SAPP's vote of no confidence hullaballo. Anwars was then again, a major player in the issue, but is completely invisible. And even after all these uproars, he has yet to show his face and give his statements in person.

Anwar is a shadowy figure indeed.

Defy

I am unhappy. I am frustrated. Everything around me looks bleak.

But I refuse to feel helpless.

I will be defiant till the very end.

...

But what am I defiant against, exactly?!

Australia - Fattest in the World?

Apparently, Australia has overtaken the US as the fattest nation in the world! My oh my...

Australia now world's fattest nation

Opinions

"Opinions are like assholes. Everybody's got one and everyone thinks everyone else's stinks."

Ah, such words of wisdom!

My Mad Cow

Like Denny Crane, I have found my Mad Cow.

It's seasonal affective disorder.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seasonal_affective_disorder

Memento Mori

remember you are mortal

remember you will die

doublethink

I have just recently realize that I'm guilty of doublethink, to borrow the terminology used by George Orwell in 1984 (the acceptance of mutually contradictory beliefs):

Cherishing life while anticipating death; you never know when the drunk driver would choose to run you over or the loose brick from the apartment roof will fall onto your head while you're strolling down the street on your way to the superette.

Seize the day, don't let the days of your life pass you by! For life is ultimately pointless & meaningless.

I put my faith in a God who is dead (as far as his influence in our current world is concerned), and still fight to hold my ground against despair.

How much longer can I last, I wonder. Already I'm feeling the strain, trying to reconciliate these impossibilities.

"Let us eat and drink, for tomorrow we die!" -Isaiah 22:13